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Monday, June 30, 2003
--Day Fourty-Two AKA Week Six--
Nothing much around here. Like dat's something to be surprised about. Heheeh.
I got a new song for mai blog!! ^_^ oh and mai friend Erika got a xanga. I'll post her link up in a few minutes. I was thinking about getting the song "you got it bad" but this one seemed more up to date. Besides I luv the video it's great!!
Alright well that's all I have to say for now. I'm on mai RPG site that I help run with a few freinds so I'm kinda busy. I'll BBL. TTYL.
THIS is the real Hennessy
6/30/2003 09:25:00 PM
Sunday, June 29, 2003
--Day Fourty One--
Todaii wasn't so bad. I played DDR and Vice City. I'm actually pretty far for just having started. I'm heading towards the final two missions pretty soon. ^_^ Hehehehe.
Uh...well...I'm not leaving the house tomorrow but I'm going to send mai camera with mai mom so that she can get the pictures developed. I took some nice shots I'm hoping to get a new picture of meeh up for mai profile and I need a few for a friend.
I think that's all that happened todaii. I saw mai therapist yesterdaii. I hate that old man...*grrrr* He irritates the shit outta meeh.
Oh no....Justin is online...great. He's going to IM meeh now...yepp he just did it. That means that I have to go. He's not going to let meeh get any blogging done. TTYL. BBL.
THIS is the real Hennessy
6/29/2003 06:35:00 PM
Friday, June 27, 2003
--Day Thirty-Nine--
I feel like shit. Todaii could pass for one of the worse daiis of mai life. You know, second to that other daii. I'm not going to say what's going on, but I'm sure you can all guess what's up. Mai life sux, what else is new?
Right now I would be the happiest kid alive if someone just pulled out a gun and shot the hell out of me. I wouldn't even put up a fight. Just shoot....
I'm not hungry. I'm not tired. I can't write. I can't dance. I won't do a thing. I can hardly blog. *sigh*
Now more than even I want revenge. I want to make everyone suffer everyone that's ever made meeh suffer or ever crossed meeh, I want to hurt them! I want them to die! I just want...I want mai sanity back!!
You voice it chased away all the sanity in meeh....
I might as well answer these questions...ugh..whatever...
1. Name: LadyB
2. Birthday: 9*24*88
3. Piercings: 3 but one closed so...2
4. Tattoos: None, yet
5. Height: 5”3
6. Shoe size: 8.5
7. Hair color: Auburn AKA Hennessy
8. Hair Length: LoNG
9. Pets: Dog
10. All I need: Mai friends and someone else
11. Love is: Something very painful and unfair but it makes us happi at the same time...
12. If I could see one person right now: ...........
13. I dream about: stuff...
Last..
1. Movie you rented: Iono
2. Movie you bought: iono...Good Girl...I think
3. Song you listened to: Crazi In Luv
4. Song you had stuck in your head: Crazi In Luv
5. Song you've downloaded: Stuck
6. Person youve called: Chi
7. Person that called you: Ernesto
8. TV shows you've watched: the simpsons!
9. Person you were thinking of: *Cough* No comment....
Do you....
1. You have a b/f?:.....No
2. You have a crush on someone?: yes
3. You wish you could live somewhere else?: sometimes
4. You think about suicide?: yea
5. You believe in online dating?: hell naw
6. think others find you attractive?: From what I hear, yeah sometimes
7. You want more piercings?: Sure
8. You want more tattoos?: yeah, I want one
9. Do you like cleaning?: Hell to da naw!
10. You write in cursive or print?: both
11. You carry a donor card?: WHF is that?!
For or against...
1. Long distance relationships: Against!!
2. Using someone: For
3. Suicide: For
4. Killing people: For
5. Teenage smoking: againSt
6. Driving drunk: AGAiNsT
7. Gay/lesbian relationships: ...For
Favorite
1. Food? Pizza
2. Song? Mai Immortal
3. Thing to do? PS2, Phone, AIM
4. Thing to talk about?: Other ppl, that bitch, boys, stuff...
5. Sports? None
6. Drinks? MaRgariTa DaQuiRi n sMiRNoFF iCe
7. Clothes?: J.Lo. Ecko Red, Lady Enyce, Rocawear, Guess, Baby Phat...
8. Movies? Save da last dance...iono
9. Bands? Iono...none at the moment
10. Holiday? kRiZMas n maH BeRdaE!
11. Car? EsCaLAde, Hummer with
23's, BMW convert
12. Ever cried over a boi?: *sniff* Yeah
13. Ever lied to someone? Yes
14. Ever been in a fight or arrested? A fight, yes, Arrested...naw...
What...?
1. Shampoo do you use? HerBaL EssENcES
2. Perfume/Cologne do you use?: J.Lo, Adidas Moves, Dream Angels (Victoria's Secret)
3. Number of times I have had my heart broken? twice
4. Number of hearts I have broken? Maiibe one...
5. # Of bois I have kissed? 22+
6. # Of drugs taken illegally? 1
7. # Of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends? 2
8. # Of people I consider my enemies? 1 at the moment, that bitch!!
9. # Of people from high school that I stayed in contact with? Mainly all
10. # Of CDs? Uhm…over 100
11. # Of scars on my body? 3 or 4
12. # Of things in my past that I regret? More than I can count
Have you ever...
1. Pictured your crush naked? *blush* Who the hell doesn't!?
2. Actually seen your crush naked? No
3. Been in love? Yeah, and currently am
4. Cried when someone died? Yeah
5. Drank alcohol? A couple of times, yeah
With the opposite sex:
1. What do you notice first?: Their eyes and butt
2. Worst thing to say?: Iono
Who:
1. Makes you laugh the most?: Juu and Chi
2. Makes you smile?: No comment...
3. Gives you a funny feeling when you see them?: *cough* No comment
4. Has a crush on you? About three or four boys
5. Easier to talk to, Boys or Girls? Gurl
Have you ever:
1. Sat on the Internet all day waiting for someone special to IM: *cough* Yeah
2. Saved AOL/AIM conversations?: Dead AIM does that for meeh
3. Cried because of someone saying something to u?: Yea
4. Fallen for your best friend?: Mai best guy friend, yes
5. Been rejected? Once I think...I don't remember
6. Rejected someone? Sadly, yea
7. Been cheated on? Hell fucking yea
Who was the last person:
1. You talked to in person?: Julian
2. Hugged?: Julian
3. You instant messaged? Juu
4. You laughed with? Haven't laughed in so long...iono...prolly Chi or Juu
Do you:
1. Color your hair? Of course
2. Ever get off the darn computer? Sometimes
3. Habla espanol? Si, I am hispanic.
Have you / Are you / Do you:
1. Obsessive: Yea, from what I hear...I guess...iono
2. Could you live without the computer? Naw
3. How many peeps are on your buddy list? 200
4. What's your favorite food? Pizza
5. Whats your favorite fruit? Strawberries
6. Drink alcohol?: Yeah
7. Like watching sunrises or sunset? Sunsets
8. What hurts the most, physical pain or emotional pain? Emotional, believe meeh.
9. Trust others way too easily? Sometimes
=
Final Questions:
[finally]
I want: to die
I wish: i understood life and luv
I love: mai friends and family
I fear: losing the ones i luv
I hear: screams
I wonder: what if i had never been born
I am: depressed
THIS is the real Hennessy
6/27/2003 01:38:00 PM
Thursday, June 26, 2003
--Day Thirty-Eight--
Hey ppl!!
Ya kno what? I was trying to post yesterdaii night but then I found out that mai blog was being uploaded to some new version of blogger. I lyke the new version but damn... :( I wanted to blog yesterdaii!! *pout*
I just got 19 new reviews for mai stories. ^___^ AND as if that wasn't enough I just found out that mai MATRIX blogskin is doing great!! 211 downloads so far and I'm on the top rated list! OO! I'm having a good ol' daii todaii.
The bad news is that now I have to take down all of mai Manga and mai story from the net. Since I'm going into the publication prossess I have to keep mai stuff away from any other type of posting until I have the book out officially. Oh well. I think It's kinda worth it. I'm so happi! If and only if things go perfect I should have mai book out by spring 2006. I know that seems lyke a long time (CHI!) but it's alright. I'm willing to take that much time off to make maiself known. I have to change the story line a lil but that's iight. I'm willing!! I hope I make it on the big time? Ya think I have a chance?
Change the layout again. The other one was too angry and not to mention too gray. This one is more cheery and more meeh-ish. I was going to do a Blue and white one but the blue was too bright and it's hard as hell on the eyes. This one's kinda nice tho. But it's all mines. I'm not going to post this one on Blogskins. It's mai own lil personal one. Tee hee.
Alright, that's long enough for meeh. I have to get back to work and call chi on the phone. I'll BBL. hopefully tomorrow. TTYL. Bai bai!!
THIS is the real Hennessy
6/26/2003 08:41:00 PM
Tuesday, June 24, 2003
--Day Thirty-Six--
Hey ppl. *Yawn* I just got up from taking a nap. A nice 2 hour long nap. Damn that was yummy! ^_^
I'm getting great reviews on mai stories. *sniff* Does meeh proud. I'm glad to see that the product of mai bordom does something for someone else. I'm going to post on FF.net more often. I've been getting some IMs from ppl who want meeh to update. I guess more than one update a month couldn't hurt.
I played Vice City. There's something that I haven't done in a while. But since all of mai information was lost on mai other memory card I had to start all over again. - -' Right now I'm working for Cortez for the second time. That's actually not bad for just having started in one day.
Well I guess that's all for todaii.
I guess all that's left is to wish death to the bitch. The sooner the better. Ya feel meeh?
BBL. Holla back.
THIS is the real Hennessy
6/24/2003 08:09:00 PM
Monday, June 23, 2003
--Day Thrity-Five AKA Week Five--
I don't know how I feel right now. I'm kinda glad. Kinda pissed. I'm in between. I just got off the phone. Chi can't talk tho. So I'm also bored. What an exciting life I live. I was going to make a new layout again (that's how bored I was getting) but I decided against it. I got the pictures I wanna use but fuck it. I'm too bored to make a new one.
Ya know, I was thinking, that in a sick twisted waii I'm gald that I got mai heart broken. Well, no, not glad but in a waii it's given mai life new light. It's made mai writing much more personal and I really think it's going somewhere. I know now that this is what I want to do for the rest of mai life. I want to be a pro. writter. Yepp, that's definately it.
I was going to change mai URL again. But what's the fucking use? I know that for the reason I'd be changing it, there would still be a waii to get to it. Unless of course I kept it all 100% private. Iono. I might change it. I'm still not sure.
Todaii I've done mai share of laughing at ppl. Guess she's not the only one. Huh?
Well that's it for meeh. I'm going to turn in for the night. I'll BBL. Holla back.
THIS is the real Hennessy
6/23/2003 09:43:00 PM
Sunday, June 22, 2003
--Day Thrity-Four--
Nothing much going on...ppl lyke mai Matrix layout and mai new story on FF.net. I got inspired to work on mai other stories, yeah...that's about it. Nothing much else...it's raining...that's it. Yepp...*sips beer*
We'll I'll bbl. Holla.
THIS is the real Hennessy
6/22/2003 04:10:00 PM
Friday, June 20, 2003
--Day Thirty-two--
I just got back from seening the "Hulk". There are only a few words that will do justice to that movie. DAMN THAT WAS GOOD! It was great! They did a great job with the CG and everything. And the Hulk had such a sad face on the whole time...awe...kinda made meeh feel bad for him. *tear*
Launch went, Chi and Juu did too. We had a good time, although I almost didn't show up for reasons that are mai own. I'm not going to go into that shit, I feel that it's mai own problem. *Shrug* By stating that there was something wrong, I've already made a deal out of it...
Well summer vacation officially starts for meeh todaii. If the ppl that run the school had things their way then I would have gone to school todaii. But as we all know, they are mindless morons that couldn't shoot a fish in a bucket, needless to say I didn't go to school. But it was for a good cause, I had a good ol' day!!!
I lyke the story that I'm working on. Juu really lykes it. So do I. And as for mai other, original story, I think I'm going to really pitch the idea off into the public. I'm going to write it all out now. I should be done with it around next winter, then I'm going to hand it over to Chi and Juu for suggestions and corrections. Once that's done, I'll take another look to it, make some changes of mai own again. By that time I think it should be around...hm...Febuary 2004 or something. After that's done, I'm going to send it off to publication. Or I might hand it over to Juu and Chi one last time. Iono. Or to an adult. Something. Then only when I feel ready will I send it off into the world, so to speak. It's too good of an idea to keep it under wraps. Believe meeh, it's going to be huge. I'm going to put teenage life into a light that it has never been given. I'm going to be famous.
That's plan A. Plan B is keeping it and sending it out in mai first semester of Senior year. By then I think more exciting things will have happened. So I'll think about it. And of course if I do that, the manga will have to be put on hold. Even though I lyked where it was heading. So who knows? It's all up to time.
Alright that was a long enough entry. I'll bbl. TTYL. Bai.
THIS is the real Hennessy
6/20/2003 02:18:00 PM
Thursday, June 19, 2003
--Day Thirty-One AKA One month--
Yeah, this wasn't how I was picturing todaii to be but...alright whatever. If there's one thing that I've learned is that nothing, absolutly nothing, goes as planned. I think mai cell phone stopped working. Hell...I'm expecting a call dammit!!
Well nothing else. oh Craig graduated todaii.
I g2g i'm writing a new story. ^_^ bbl. bai.
THIS is the real Hennessy
6/19/2003 09:35:00 PM
Wednesday, June 18, 2003
--Still Day Thirty--
Alright I made mai quiz page. I don't wanna hear any of that "Oh you jocked Juu" bull shit. I was thinking this long before Juu even made hers so fuck off. The link is up. Check it out if you want. I'll BBL. ttyl that's all for now.
THIS is the real Hennessy
6/18/2003 07:04:00 PM
--Day Thirty--
Sorry that I haven't been online for the past few days. I've been in some trouble with mai mother so she kinda didn't let meeh use the computer. Doesn't mean that I wanted it but whatever, I had to listen to her. Whatever, I'm back!
Todaii was i-ight. It was mai last daii of school. Nothing much happened. Juu, Chi and I stopped by Launch's house, Chi had to use the bathroom and then we grabbed a soda and left. After that I went to Juu's house. We watched a movie, eat a burger with some fries, and then played some DDR. It was nice. I hadn't had time to just kick it with Juu for a while. Something always came up. Oh just fuck it though. We're getting together with some friends on Fridaii to go watch the "Hulk". Not mai fave. movie to go see, but anything to get meeh outta the house.
I got into a lil argument with mai ex todaii. *grrr* What a bastard. I can't stand him sometimes. And yet I'm still very much physically attracted to him. It all started when he got a cell phone, he called meeh last night and then told meeh "hey what do you do when you have a cell phone and don't know the number?" I asked him if that was his case and then he was lyke "yeah". So after he found out his number he lemme know the number. *Gasp* I thought he would have kept it from meeh. So yeah, he handed the number over. And then this morning we were flirting over Text messages. That was nice, for a change.
Then when I got to nutrition I kinda let it slip that he had a cell phone to Chi and Juu. Not that Juu cared but Chi was lyke "OH and he can't call a girl and tell her!?" she was outraged. Veggie had told meeh not to tell them he had a phone. He wanted to keep it on the DL. :X oops! Oh well. Back to mai story; so she took the number and said that she found it on mai phone and then she texted him. I didn't think that anything was gonna happen!!
GOD! And then he called meeh and was lyke "WTF? Why did you give Chi mai number?!" He was cussing so much he would have done a sailor proud. We just started arguing. I told him that Chi had found it on mai phone and he was lyke "BS I know you gave it to her." He just stared yelling at meeh and now he's mad at meeh. :(
Gosh now I have to work things out with him again. Will hell never end?! Oh boi...
Ya know there was a time when I thought that I had mai life situated. Now it's all sprialling out of control. *sigh* IHML. I seriously do. There are up sides to mai life, that's what keeps meeh going of course, but those hard times...whoa...those hard times make meeh wanna just quit....
In other, much more pleasent news, I was thinking of making a quiz page lyke Juu. I was thinking that for a while. But I haven't had the time or energy to. But due to the last entry I made, I just might. Yeah...ya know what?! I'm gonna!! I'll update later with the linkage. So until then....bbl. LUVIES!
THIS is the real Hennessy
6/18/2003 06:34:00 PM
Sunday, June 15, 2003
--Day Twenty-Seven--
I took a lot of quizes todaii. I made a new layout on blogskins. I can't find the link so you'll have to find it on your own. Sorry. I drew, or tried to draw, a few pictures todaii. Played some DDR. How fun. [/sarcasm]
Planning on going to the movies on Fridaii still. I'ma try to talk mai momma into it. I hope she says yes.
I think I speak for most girls out there when I say Jessika is lucky! If you watched Oliver Beene tonight you'd know why. It might be a re-run of an old episode but either way, SHE GOT TO KISS ANDREW LAURENCE!! That's why I want to be an actress. You get to kiss some hot guys. And then again, some not so hot guys. Man..she got lucky though. I remember the night after that episode aired, eveyone, and I mean EVERYONE in our 6th period would just not leave her alone.
"Jess, was he any good?"
"How much did they pay you?"
Poor girl. Oh what am I saying...she knows she lyked all of the attention. It's a shame she don't go to our school anymore. She was really good ppl. Both her and her sister Erika. They were nice girls, twins no less. Oh well, at least they don't have to deal Westchester High anymore. Lucky...
THIS is the real Hennessy
6/15/2003 07:12:00 PM
Saturday, June 14, 2003
--Day Twenty-Six--
Listening to: "Feeling Freaky" By: B2K and Nick Cannon.
Nothing much happened todaii. I went to Brigette's. *sigh* I got a first degree burn on mai thumb. It hurts lyke a bitch. That and now mai mother is trying to think of a way so that I can't go to the movies with mai friends on Fridaii. At first she tried to say that we don't have any money, but we do. Then she tried to tell meeh I had to go to school. When I told her that she had told meeh I could stay home, she said that now I have to go! Can you believe that?! I'ma try to cut her a deal. I'll go to school on Thursday if she let's meeh go to the movies on Fridaii. I hope she accepts. Because we've all been trying to get together for a while now and it's always something or other that prevents us from going. Fuck that. I'm gonna see a moive. Mark mai words.
I saw 'Dumb and Dumberer' yesterdaii. It isn't that bad, but it wasn't "OMG!" So it was iight all in all.
In other news I got mai book off the fucking ground! I can totally see where it's going. I know where it's gonna end and everything. Believe meeh, it's gonna be off da hooks! I luv it. It's tyte. Iono if I'ma still make it a manga, it's too long!! But if I have enough time on mai hands, I'ma get this shit online for sure. It's too good to let it pass the people up.
I posted a layout on blogskins. Wanna see? Well you can move the mose over the click-age and check it on out! Lemme know what ya think!! KK?
One Layout
Second Layout
Third Layout
Well I think that's all I got to say for now. Hehhee. I'm out then. Holla 4 a dolla! Tee hee.
THIS is the real Hennessy
6/14/2003 08:58:00 PM
Friday, June 13, 2003
--Day Twenty-five--
I'm just making a quick post.
I mailed the letter todaii. YAY 4 MEEH!! *sigh* Damn it took meeh long enough to just send the damn thing!
I'm still very much feeling Trowa. I only have three more days for him to be all minez. I better take advantage of it. Hehehe.
Well that's all for now. I told ya it was a very short post. ^_^
THIS is the real Hennessy
6/13/2003 08:28:00 PM
Thursday, June 12, 2003
--Day Twenty-four--
For now all I have to say is....
I'MA MAKE THAT NIGGA BEG!
THIS is the real Hennessy
6/12/2003 07:36:00 PM
Wednesday, June 11, 2003
--Day Tweny-three--
*sigh*
I don't even know where to start with todaii. I thought I was having a great daii todaii up until I got home. I mean todaii after school was great! Trowa and meeh were hitting it off!! We were just playing around and kinda flirting around for the whole hour we were after school. He said he was going to hit meeh and then he was just playing around and you know...casual flirting. If I were blogging a few hours ago I would have been so into this blog but right now, I have other things on mai mind, so to saii. But the bottom line was that after I left school I was on cloud nine.
And then I came home. Shit....way to kill a girl's dreams. I guess I brought this up on maiself. I asked Chi to call him. Big Mistake. She did call, he was home, he called meeh. END OF STORY. Everything just went down hill from there. This is like the first time that I've openly realized that gawd damn...things really are over. It hit meeh lyke a ton of bricks. I guess mai eyes were just shut for a while. Finally they have opened. I just don't know what I'm going to do now. Now that he's gone forever.
Well that was day 23 of mai lil hell. I'll BBL. I wanna go to sleep now...peace. Ignorance, it really is bliss.
THIS is the real Hennessy
6/11/2003 08:23:00 PM
Tuesday, June 10, 2003
--Day Twenty-two--
NOTE: This was written earlier todaii. I don't feel the same way as I did back then...I might a lil but not all the way.
Wanna kno what? Mai daii has been shit. I mean everything has been annoying meeh. Part of meeh knows what's pissing meeh off, the other part just choses to ignore the reason. Even the guy I lyke is starting to irritate meeh. mai friends irritate meeh, oh and mai teacher is pissing meeh off. Well...mai friends aren't really pissing meeh off...but damn...iono. IHML. I wanna fuckin' die. I wanna take a fuckin gun and shoo maiself. I'm so ticked. RIght now I really don't care about French class, or anything else for that matter. I'm just so fucking pissed. I just wanna scream at the top of mai lungs...IHML
Dammit! I wanna die! I wanna shoot someone. Nothing anyone says right now can cheer meeh up. The guy I lyke has a girlfriend. He'll never give meeh the time of day!! I sit next to him and he never even looks mai way. And for all of you that read this and think that I'm talking about Trowa, ya'll so wrong. It's not Trowa. It's someone else... I'm failing French and yet I'm being forced to listen to the rest of the class and take a final that I'ma fail as well. Isn't that some shit. It seems that evertying I do is wrong to everyone. I can never please anyone. So now I'm to the point where "fuck everyone else" if they don't like meeh, whatever. I'm through living up to what others want me to be. For once I want to be mai own person. I'm so ticked off, I think I wanna sleep...
Man fuck the final. I don't care. I'ma fail either way. There's no hope for meeh. I'm hopeless, there's no use in trying...let alone living.
BBL. Holla.
Can you tell I wrote that during French class?
Now for tonight's post.
I blacked out earlier tonight. I got off the phone with Chi and then when I hung up with her the world just went doooowwwnnnnn. I hit the floor and on the way I hit mai head on the desk. I blacked out. When I came to I was in mai bed, 40 minutes later. Mai mommy said that it had been pretty bad. After a few minutes of trying to get the room to stand still I threw up. Bloody green stuff might I add. I feel horrible. I don't even kno why I'm blogging right now. *shakes head* BTW, this isn't meeh typing. This is mai cousin, he's covering for meeh, main reason this is tkaing so long. He can't spell the way I do and he has to keep going back and making the word 'me' say 'meeh' and stuff. Hehehe. Oh well. I'll stop the torture and leave. BBL.
Holla baq!
THIS is the real Hennessy
6/10/2003 10:10:00 PM
Monday, June 09, 2003
--Day Twenty-One AKA Week Three--
*sigh* Alright...three whole long weeks since the..ya know, thing. I must have re-read the letter that I wrote him about a dozen times todaii. I even added a few things. So I guess that later I'll just send it. I've made mai point. I don't regreat anything that I've written, in fact, I'm proud of it. So when I send it, the only thing I pray for is, that he gets it first and that it actually reaches him.
Juu didn't come to school todaii again (no surprise). She's lucky. Her mother doesn't make her go to school all the time. I wanted to stay home todaii. Mai ankel still hurts. But nooooo, mai mother just had to make meeh go. Whatever. I can't change that shit.
Launch came back todaii, she was out for a week because of her broken (i think) knee. She popped it or something. Iono.
Other than that, todaii was pretty meaningless. I'm going to try and use the phone tonight. Let him know that I'm sending it to him, and then talk a lil. Alright, I'm out. Holla.
THIS is the real Hennessy
6/09/2003 02:35:00 PM
Sunday, June 08, 2003
--Day Twenty--
I'm glad that ya'll lyke mai new layout. After 2 hours of changing and fixing, I think It looks great!! I'm very proud of this one!! Oooo, I luv it. But incase mai mood does change I have a few back up layouts that I've edited and I'm thinking about making a new one. Something blue-ish, but easy on the eyes.
Well good news is that I can walk away, after being parilized for almost a whole day I have regained mai walking. For all of you that don't know why it's in mai previous entry. Looks like I have to go to school on Mondaii after all...*grrr* I was hoping to play sick.
In other, much better news, I've completed ch. two to mai story that mai manga is based on. I'll post that up later todaii. I've mad a few changes in the book, now everyone is older than they were. I'm thinking of keeping the manga how it is because 1] I've already drawn them and can't suddenly make them look older and 2] I kinda already posted it. So the changes will just be anime/manga changes. Ya know, how there's always something different in the manga and the anime. Besides, I'm much much better with words. There's always that lil voice in mai head that wants meeh to stop the manga, and keep writing. Iono yet. I know I'ma keep the book going. I have to, I luv it too much not to. But the manga, even though it's a kawaii (damn haven't said that in a while) idea, it takes up so much time. I'm only on page nine and not even half way done with ch. 1. So depending on mai mood in later days I'll see what happens with the manga. But the book is definatly staying!!
Alright, I might be back later. It's a sunday I have a tendancy to blog twice since I have time on mai hands. So I'll holla.
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You are Trinity (played by Carrie-Ann Moss) you
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Which MATRIX character are you?
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[Me.]
You are the Ultimate Matrix Fan!
What Kind Of Matrix Fan Are You?
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I have no idea how I got that result....
THIS is the real Hennessy
6/08/2003 02:12:00 PM
Saturday, June 07, 2003
--Day Nineteen--
I changed mai layout. It better fits mai mood. As the new blog title says, I don't love him anymore!! I think I've made a brake through or something because while I do still love him...I feel as if something's changed. I have no need to send him that letter anymore, but I might as well. I'm going to ignore him for a while. See what he does. Other than that I'm peachy! I luv mai new layout. Hand made by yours truly. Well not really hand made but I changed a lot of things from the original layout. There was only one table. I needed three. I kept the picture, because that's what I wanted the most, and split the tables. It was a bitch to get everything working right with this image but it worked!! I luv it! I twisted mai ankel todaii. :( oh well. It was hurting lyke a bitch but not anymore. It's getting better. But that means that I have go to school on mondaii. Damn. Whatever. I'll see what happens.
Well I g2g for now, BBL.
What's your usual [mood]?
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6/07/2003 05:55:00 PM
Friday, June 06, 2003
--Still Day Eighteen--
You are the Bloody Siren. Vain, selfish, sexual
fantasy, you lure mortal men to their dark end.
You are sex and illusion and you use up men to
feed your wicked desires until they surrender
to you their last, crimson drop.
What Fictional Vampire Archtype are You?
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Rave Gamer
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Looking Good
What is your strong point?(pics)
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What is your anime sex position?(images)
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This result had a picture...but hell...it was nasty! I dind't wanna post it. So yeah. If you wanna see it, take the quiz.
Censor Bar
You are the Censor Bar! Let me guess...you are
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What type of ANIME cock do you have?
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pathetic
What is your reason for suicide?(with images)
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Magical Girl
What is your anime occupation? (pics)
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YAOI HENTAI
(results contain pictures) Whats your HENTAI???
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Blade-You are most like Blade. You like to dress
in black, and you weild some of the coolest
equipment around. You know how to destroy
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DEMON
(females)what is one of your past lives? (results contain pictures)
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Just wanted to post some more quiz results.
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6/06/2003 08:07:00 PM
--Day Eighteen--
Wow...damn it's been a while now hasn't it? I can't believe it now that I think back on it. Nothing much to say.
Juu left meeh alone at school again. Juu's evil!! Pure evil! ooo and Marron got caught ditching. Lucky bitch don't have to come back to school anymore....*grr* I do...
Marron just said good bye to us. She's going to Ingelwood High school now. hehehe. That could either be a very good thing or a very bad thing...hehehe. 
Mastema: One of Satan's minions. Temptation is your
specialty... To sum up your personality: A
tempter at best, and creator of all evil at
worst.
Which Angel Lays Within You?
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6/06/2003 12:45:00 PM
Thursday, June 05, 2003
--Day Seventeen--
Alright, I might have come off as angry yesterdaii but I think I'm well over that. I was just...having a pretty rough time. I'm over that now though, not totally but I'm feelin better. You know teens. One minute they love you, the next they hate the world.
I might be coming closer to you know...moving on from the wole "I need time" thing. I ripped up one of the three pictures I have of meeh and him todaii. And I ripped a poster thing with his and mai name on it. Some ppl think it's about time. Other's old meeh it was too soon. Either way, I had to do it.
I'm trying to add some new text to mai blog...the question is where...? Iono maybe on top..iono
Nothing much else happened. I have to get going. BBL.
SEDUCTIVE EYES
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Jude Law - An extremely talented, beautifully
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cool, and dripping with sex appeal.Purrrr!
Some movies starring Jude Law include The Talented
Mr. Ripley, Road to Perdition, A.I. and Gattaca
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HENTAI OTAKU
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Marla Singer.
Marla is like a cut on the roof of you mouth that
would heal if only you could stop tonguing it.
What Aspect of Fight Club Are You?
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What Kind of Outfit Are You? (with Pictures)
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6/05/2003 07:31:00 PM
Wednesday, June 04, 2003
--Still Day Sixteen--
You know what? After some serious refelcting I've noticed how little meaning my life has. I'm always someone else's back up girl. I'm always the girl that get's hit on only if there's no one else. I'm always the one someone has to settle for. I'm sick of being that. I'm sick of being used. I'm sick of being lied to. I'm sick of having to deal with other ppl's emotions. For once, I'd like the world to stop and just....stop! I would like to be able to sit down and ask myself what is it that I need. Not what Ernesto needs. Not what Kachife wants. Not what Chris has time for. NO! I just want things to go my way for a little while. Is that so bad?! God Damnit! I'm so sick and tried of being played for eveyone's fool. I can't stand it any longer. I mean come on now!! If you were the one being used as everyone's play toy, you'd be sick of it too!!
Sometimes I just feel lyke braking something and shattering it to the point where the pain isn't there anymore. Sometimes when I'm alone with my thoughts, I wish that memories would be just that; a thing of the past that never, ever returned. And most of all, I want to just brake down and cry to my heart's content. It's one of the things that offers little refuge in this bitter world I live in. I do that enough though. So there's no point in that. I mean for the past three days it's been a series of crying, bitching, and crying some more. I'm surprised that at this point in my life I still have people in my life that I can call friends. I can't believe that they've stood by me, even after all the things I've done. Normal people wouldn't take that shit. The only thing my emotions do to them is burden them, cause them to worry about a problem that isn't theirs. Why the fuck would they put up with me? What obligation of theirs is it? I guess I'm lucky to have people like that.
I can't open up to just anyone anymore. I'm stuck. It's either burden someone with mai problems or keep it all in. Either way, I'm screwed.
THIS is the real Hennessy
6/04/2003 09:39:00 PM
--Day Sixteen--
I still HML! Nothing's changed. If anything, things have gotten worse lately. I didn't think it was possible but the pain seems to get worser and worser evey time I think about it. That's why I hate thinking. Thinking is a bitch. I wish I didn't have to think at all sometimes but I just can't help it. He's always on mai mind....*sigh*
Meh...I just came out of mai math class which is a bitch. What else is there? Nothing. Oh, lyrics to mai new fave. song. Here!! Lookie.
I'm so tired of being here
Suppressed by all of my childish fears
And if you have to leave
I wish that you would just leave
Because your presence still lingers here
And it won't leave me alone
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just to real
There's just too much time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I've held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
You use to captivate me
By your resonating light
But now I'm bound by the life you left behind
your face it haunts my once pleasent dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just to real
There's just too much time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I've held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
And though you're still with me
I've been alone all along.
These wounds won't seem to heal
This pain is just to real
There's just too much time cannot erase
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears
And I've held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me
~*~
Side note: i didn't go to sixth period todaii. Tee hee. Lyke dat's soemthing new. Whatever. I can't stand going to mai fucking class. Fucking miss. goodman fucking school. Fucking life. ugh. i hate it here. mai mommy wants meeh to go to another school next year. See, if i had things mai way i would just get to stay here or got to IHS. Best believe if i went there I would make sure to make his life a living hell. Ahaha. I'd get with his best friend or someting just to rub dat shit in his face. Ok...see now I'm getting hateful. Dat's a bad thing. bad Bulma. hehehe. *slaps wrist*
......*is bored* I guess I'ma get going.
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6/04/2003 12:50:00 PM
Tuesday, June 03, 2003
--Day Fifteen--
OMG OMG OMG OMG! IHML! I seriously do! I can't this shit anymore, honestly I just can't. One of these days I'm going to pop; just explode in anger. I got some horrible news todaii that I shall not even bother posting. I just kno that things aren't ever going to be the same as they were before. I think I've lost a large part of meeh todaii. I don't think I've ever felt hurt like this before. Its almost as if...a part of meeh has just died or something. I've been crying all day again. Lyke that's something new. But if you only knew what happened...then you'd understand why I was crying so much. Damn, mai eyes hurt lyke hell and mai make-up has been shitty all daii. *sigh* And I don't have the nerves to call him up either, I just can't stand to hear his voice anymore....
Todaii has been soooo stressful. I think I've gained lyke 3 new gray hairs or something. >.< Iono. I know I feel stressed tho. Very stressed. Ooo and I wrote something too. I'ma post it on the board contest going on. Yeah...here it is.
I can try to like the people you love,
Altho no promises will be made.
I can try to dislike the things u hate,
And b there when you're afraid.
One thing for certain is if you leave,
I'm not sure if ill still be around
But i can still make u believe,
That i can still b always found.
Being as truthful as i can be,
If i do say that, it'd be a lie.
Don't you kno im tryin to make you see,
Everything is up for you to decide.
Holla back later.
THIS is the real Hennessy
6/03/2003 07:47:00 PM
Monday, June 02, 2003
--Day Fourteen AKA Two Weeks--
*sigh* Oh mai god. It's been two weeks already. I can't believe that things are still going on this way. I haven't talked to him in abot three or four days. I have no plans on talking to him either. I've lost all hope in getting back with him. It's been two weeks. We sould be talking to each other by now. We should be close, things are suppose to be different!! But no! Haven't talked to him in a long ass time and I still have hope?! Gosh I think I'm starting to get...what's the word....crazi. Yeah dat's the one.
I guess that there is a little part of meeh that wants to get back with him. But I can't. It's over. If we're going to get back together there's only one more week left....
THIS is the real Hennessy
6/02/2003 10:18:00 AM
Sunday, June 01, 2003
--Day Twelve--Day Thirteen--
Nothing much happened todaii. I should have posted this earlier todaii. So that's why this is both day 12 and 13. I'm talking to Juu. We've been talking for the past 3 hours or so. That's how good we get along. Tee hee. OOO! Here's mai destiny:
Your fundamental principle of life is "change and diversity is life".You are a person always on the move.The only thing that can be told about you for certain is that you love change.Change in all facets of life is your motto.Your ability to develop new contacts quickly and your communication skills are exemplary.
If there is onething which is holding your progress,it is your lack of discipline .You may be impulsive, doing or expressing things you regret later. Your misdirected sense of freedom and adventure may lead to your destruction.You may start a work with great enthusiasm but leave it halfdone in the middle and do not pay any attention to it thereafter. The result is that you may lose your credibility.
In general loyalty is certainly not your forte in your personal life.but if your partner happens to win your love and affection,it is likely you would stay faithful forever.Your dynamism,presence of mind would ensure you have
more friends in your life.
You have the potential to excel in sales, advertising, publicity, promotion, politics or any profession that requires your communication skills and understanding of people.However it is your ability to control impulsiveness
and infuse a sense of discipline which can actually convert potential to performance.
And here's mai expression.
You are by nature ,imaginative,artistic and diplomatic.You seek balance and peace in all relationships and situations. The key to your personality is sensitivity.You possess a great talent for working with others. You have the ability to handle any volatile situation with aplomb.You have a highly developed intuition. This provides you with insight into personalities and situations.
Your hyper sensitivity can be your pitfall.Too often you are upset giving undue importance to any stray remark which are made with the sole motive of upsetting you. You can be thrown off balance by an unkind word, a conflict, or by hostile conditions at work. You tend to shy away from the limelight.as a result someone else takes the credit for your efforts.
You are friendly and open-minded. Close relationships are essential for your happiness. When single, you dream of finding your ideal partner. When married, you are an outstanding marriage partner,you are concerned with your spouse's needs, emotions, and thoughts.
You should endeavour to carry out your plans and ideas on days whose numbers vibrate with your own,such as the 2nd,11th,20th,or 29th of any month.
your lucky colours include all shades of green,cream shades and white.
Well yeah, dat's about it. Holla back later.
THIS is the real Hennessy
6/01/2003 01:57:00 AM
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