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Tuesday, June 10, 2003
--Day Twenty-two--
NOTE: This was written earlier todaii. I don't feel the same way as I did back then...I might a lil but not all the way.
Wanna kno what? Mai daii has been shit. I mean everything has been annoying meeh. Part of meeh knows what's pissing meeh off, the other part just choses to ignore the reason. Even the guy I lyke is starting to irritate meeh. mai friends irritate meeh, oh and mai teacher is pissing meeh off. Well...mai friends aren't really pissing meeh off...but damn...iono. IHML. I wanna fuckin' die. I wanna take a fuckin gun and shoo maiself. I'm so ticked. RIght now I really don't care about French class, or anything else for that matter. I'm just so fucking pissed. I just wanna scream at the top of mai lungs...IHML
Dammit! I wanna die! I wanna shoot someone. Nothing anyone says right now can cheer meeh up. The guy I lyke has a girlfriend. He'll never give meeh the time of day!! I sit next to him and he never even looks mai way. And for all of you that read this and think that I'm talking about Trowa, ya'll so wrong. It's not Trowa. It's someone else... I'm failing French and yet I'm being forced to listen to the rest of the class and take a final that I'ma fail as well. Isn't that some shit. It seems that evertying I do is wrong to everyone. I can never please anyone. So now I'm to the point where "fuck everyone else" if they don't like meeh, whatever. I'm through living up to what others want me to be. For once I want to be mai own person. I'm so ticked off, I think I wanna sleep...
Man fuck the final. I don't care. I'ma fail either way. There's no hope for meeh. I'm hopeless, there's no use in trying...let alone living.
BBL. Holla.
Can you tell I wrote that during French class?
Now for tonight's post.
I blacked out earlier tonight. I got off the phone with Chi and then when I hung up with her the world just went doooowwwnnnnn. I hit the floor and on the way I hit mai head on the desk. I blacked out. When I came to I was in mai bed, 40 minutes later. Mai mommy said that it had been pretty bad. After a few minutes of trying to get the room to stand still I threw up. Bloody green stuff might I add. I feel horrible. I don't even kno why I'm blogging right now. *shakes head* BTW, this isn't meeh typing. This is mai cousin, he's covering for meeh, main reason this is tkaing so long. He can't spell the way I do and he has to keep going back and making the word 'me' say 'meeh' and stuff. Hehehe. Oh well. I'll stop the torture and leave. BBL.
Holla baq!
THIS is the real Hennessy
6/10/2003 10:10:00 PM
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