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Wednesday, June 04, 2003

--Still Day Sixteen--

You know what? After some serious refelcting I've noticed how little meaning my life has. I'm always someone else's back up girl. I'm always the girl that get's hit on only if there's no one else. I'm always the one someone has to settle for. I'm sick of being that. I'm sick of being used. I'm sick of being lied to. I'm sick of having to deal with other ppl's emotions. For once, I'd like the world to stop and just....stop! I would like to be able to sit down and ask myself what is it that I need. Not what Ernesto needs. Not what Kachife wants. Not what Chris has time for. NO! I just want things to go my way for a little while. Is that so bad?! God Damnit! I'm so sick and tried of being played for eveyone's fool. I can't stand it any longer. I mean come on now!! If you were the one being used as everyone's play toy, you'd be sick of it too!!

Sometimes I just feel lyke braking something and shattering it to the point where the pain isn't there anymore. Sometimes when I'm alone with my thoughts, I wish that memories would be just that; a thing of the past that never, ever returned. And most of all, I want to just brake down and cry to my heart's content. It's one of the things that offers little refuge in this bitter world I live in. I do that enough though. So there's no point in that. I mean for the past three days it's been a series of crying, bitching, and crying some more. I'm surprised that at this point in my life I still have people in my life that I can call friends. I can't believe that they've stood by me, even after all the things I've done. Normal people wouldn't take that shit. The only thing my emotions do to them is burden them, cause them to worry about a problem that isn't theirs. Why the fuck would they put up with me? What obligation of theirs is it? I guess I'm lucky to have people like that.

I can't open up to just anyone anymore. I'm stuck. It's either burden someone with mai problems or keep it all in. Either way, I'm screwed.


THIS is the real Hennessy
6/04/2003 09:39:00 PM

What you see


Pronunciation: Hen-nes-si Roy-se
Variant(s): Henny, Hen, Rolls Royce, Roycie, The Drink
Function: Noun
Etymology: Easily falls in love. Mild tempered but explosive when angered. Thinks with heart over logic, thus, suffers from a broken heart constantly.

¤Name¤: Hennessy Royce
¤Birthdate¤: Sept. 24
¤Gender¤: Female
¤Height¤: 5'2''
¤Age¤: 15
¤Eye Color¤: Brown
¤Hair Color¤: Aurburn
¤Star Sign¤: Proud to be a LIBRA!
¤Obsession¤: Shoppin and Internet, Football
¤Personality¤: Loud and Hyper
¤Instrument¤: Piano and Flute
¤Angel or Devil¤: 30-70
¤Relationship Status¤: Single and NOT looking


¤AIM¤

Only Comforts


¤Adriana¤
¤Andrew¤
¤Brandon¤
¤Star¤
¤Damita¤
Rheo
¤Miyana¤
¤Paul¤
¤Bozjanique¤
¤Shaz¤

Past Unforgotten


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+05/01/2003 - 06/01/2003+
+06/01/2003 - 07/01/2003+
+07/01/2003 - 08/01/2003+
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+09/01/2003 - 10/01/2003+
+10/01/2003 - 11/01/2003+
+11/01/2003 - 12/01/2003+
+12/01/2003 - 01/01/2004+
+01/01/2004 - 02/01/2004+
+02/01/2004 - 03/01/2004+
+03/01/2004 - 04/01/2004+
+04/01/2004 - 05/01/2004+
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+12/01/2004 - 01/01/2005+
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+02/01/2005 - 03/01/2005+
+03/01/2005 - 04/01/2005+
+08/01/2005 - 09/01/2005+
+11/01/2005 - 12/01/2005+

Wishes Unfulfilled



¤ Ipod Photo
¤ New Make-up Bag
¤ Louis Vuitton Backpack
¤ Red Nail Polish
¤ Von Dutch Jacket
¤ New Timberlands
¤ Video Phone
¤ Sorority Jacket
¤ USC FootBall Jersey
¤ Over-sized Frat. T-Shirt
¤ Just Cavalli (perfume)
¤ Fendi Purse
¤ Dooney and Bourke Purse
¤ Dior Sunglasses
¤ Chanel Boots
¤ Chanel Glasses
¤ New Digital Camera
¤ Roberto Cavalli coat