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Sunday, January 11, 2004
Mood:  | Love Struck
Music: "When Will I See You Again" Bai Baby Face.
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--Day Two Hundred and Thirty-Two--
Look at that, I'm blogging two days in a row. I guess I wannt to blog the most I can before I go back to skool which is tomorrow. XD I hate skool. I hate the things that come from skool. I hate having to put up wiff teachers that I can't stands lyke Mr. Fucking-Leeka, and the usual swarm of haters lyke Lydia and her crew of freaks. Oh well, I can handle it. What wud High Skool be lyke if we all didn't have teachers we hated and ppl dat hated us? Ish just comes wiff da package. ::shrugs::
Ever feel lyke you're dying from the inside out? Yeah...I feel lyke dat now. I'm a bit stressed so ish normal for meeh to feel this waii when I am. I stayed up later than I usually do last nyte talking to Cheena and Chi-Chi. We talked about everything and anything. And then a while later Chi-Chi had to leave. But anyway, that's not the point. The point is that talking to Cheena opened mai eyes last nyte. I was writing another chapter to a story that I hadn't updated in months when we got on the romance topic. And getting onto that made meeh see some things. I thought that I was completely over someone. I thought that since it was almost a year since I last saw him that things were going to just vanish about him. Since I don't think about him da waii I use to, I think that's something else that played a factor in meeh thinking that he was a long since forgotten part of mai life. But I realize that old wounds close hard, and that if you pick at em even slightly they bleed once more. Meaning? Meaning that yeah I still hurt when I think about him. I hadn't had a moment to just sit down and think about how I really felt about him since a while ago so getting to reflect on the topic made meeh see that I may never forget him at all.
People saii dat your first luv ish da luv dat you neva forget and ish da 1 dat stays wiff ya foreva and eva. I'm starting to think that ish tru. Guess dat's just one of the thangs that you have to experience for yourself to actually believe. ::shrugs:: It doesn't boter meeh now but last nyte it did. I wanted to erase him from mai mind soooo bad. Lyke you gots no idea. But now I'm just going to accept it and try and live mai life. I've come to see dat the less time I have on mai hands to just sit back and think the less time I have to go on and start thinking of Him. So now I'm kinda thankful for all the shit that I have to do now. I kno dat fo' da months to come I'ma be hellva busy person. I can kiss thinking about mai broken luv life Ja'ne! Thank God.
Nothing else going on...that's about it. Just wanted to blog again. I'll try and blog again tomorrow, but iono. Tomorrow ish da first daii back to skool since winter vacation. God be wiff us all. I don't think I'm ready fo' dis one.
THIS is the real Hennessy
1/11/2004 02:00:00 PM
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