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Saturday, May 01, 2004
Mood:  | Ghetto (hm...I wonder why!?)
Music: Everything I've known by Korn
Social: Cheena, (thus the ghetto-ness)
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--Day Three Hundred and Forty-One--
Wow, I've had an emotional couple of days. Since Thrusday I've been on an emotional joyride. Fridaii I was torn the hell apart and Thursdaii I was so deep in lust I didn't know what to think. And todaii I've been..oki. I told Gar what happened with Robert. I had to get it off of mai chest. It was killing meeh! Now call meeh stupid but I felt that I had to. I felt that if I didn't it was lyke keeping something major from him. It felt lyke I was cheating on him! Go figure that out! I was lyke "WTF". I had no idea why I was feeling like that since he has Sarah and all but, hey, I'm fucked up dat waii. I feel things that aren't there and think things through too much. He prolly doesn't care. He's prolly all lyke "oh wow". I doubt he gives a hot fuck that I kissed Robert.
But other than that mai daii was pretty up. I took some pictures wiff Brig. I got some nice ones so I keep meaning to put them up. ::shakes head:: I've been so busy I ain't got time. I've also been meaning to change this picture. Tho I luv it and all, ish just too big for mai blog. I wanna bring it back down to a smaller size. So I myte take it back to the Kira and Rei picture I had a few weeks ago. Iono yet. I'll think about that.
Anyway, back to mai daii. It was good! Mai nyte was even better! I got to talk to Che online then I got on the phone and called her. It was nice! Funni as hell too. We talked for about forty minutes or something. However long we talked it was great. Lifted mai mood since I was kinda down when I got home. No one was home. Julian and Andrew were gone for the night, Iono when or if they'll be back and mai mom and went out wiff mai uncle and mai aunt. So I was all alone. After talking to her mai mood had picked up. Even after mai mom yelled at meeh, I was still kinda up.
Now I'm just bored, trying to get this blog out before I have to go. I gotta go clean the stupid house soon. Yuppie. ::rolls eyes::
Well...I think that's about it. Ryte now I'm just talking to mami-che aka Mamma Stelly. We're talking about how she would disown meeh if I married Robert. Iono how we got onto this convo but I kno she said she would. I kno she's serious too. She's just lookin out for mai best inerest. I mean I lyke Robert. He's good. Really good. But he ain't nothing. He ain't the type of boi you bring home to momma and he sure in hell ain't the man to make the father of your kids. Just ain't gonna float. She was ryte about meeh breaking down in due time, hell that shit started already on Fridaii, so I kno she's ryte about having to stay away from him as much as I can. She sure in hell was ryte about all the pain that would come from this. I ain't never felt so ripped up in mai life.
::sighs::
On Fridaii I was thinkin of the reasons as to why I let him do what he does to meeh. I guess ish just cuz he gives meeh what almost everyone around us has. Passion. But the only thing is that he doesn't wanna be serious, so that's just empty passion. Others got boyfriends and girlfriends that keep em company, that they even consider their best friends. Meeh and Robert can't even consider ourselves close friends. We're good friends on one level, and on the other level we were more. But there's nothing that's going to come from that.
And then there's his girlfriend. I think he name is Molly. What about her? He's runnin game on her and I'm the other woman again. That's what he did to Lydia. Cheated on her with meeh and now he's doin this to Molly. Obviously she don't kno. If she did, then I think she'd've come up and said something to meeh. And from what I hear they're just fine so she really don't kno. She don't kno shit. He's makin meeh the second woman in his relationship and he's not going to leave Molly for meeh. I kno that now. So I guess I'll just have to carry on as if nothing ever happened. I mean it was nothing right? What was it? Just a few kisses from mai best friend's brother? Yepp, totally nothing. It's not like I luv him or anything.
::shakes head::
Dammit I hate ranting on and on about Robert. But this is the only place I can do it now it now it seems. I don't want to talk to this to Gar. I kno for a fact he don't wanna hear this. Che and meeh talk about this sometimes but, there are other things to talk about. I can't tell Ju, he'll skin meeh alive. So this poor blog must take it and hold these thoughts.
Until I figure things out, this is where I'm going to write about how things happen. This is mai only outlet.
::hugs blog::
Thank god for you, bloggie.
Well...I think that now I'm really just going to end mai post. I'm not feeling as hyper and ghetto as I was when I started this post but...hey...things always change ryte?
THIS is the real Hennessy
5/01/2004 10:05:00 PM
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