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Wednesday, July 21, 2004
Mood:  | Holding on
Music: Weak Bai Jo Jo
Social: Brigette, Estelle and Kacea
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--Day Two--
Surprisingly after mai post last nyte mai mood actually picked up some. I kno dat I wasn't jumping for joi, nah, far from it but I did get a lil better.
Lyke it said last nyte I was talking to Estelle, she always seems to help meeh when I'm feeling ultra down lyke I was last nyte. I haven't broken down lyke dat in a while and even tho when she helps meeh ish really...direct, ish what I needed. Other ppl around meeh aroo too chicken shit to tell it to meeh lyke it is. Or sometymes they're too direct. Either waii, I really wanna thank Estelle...she opened mai eyes last nyte. So thanks. Even tho your words hurt ish what I needed.
Another person I need to thaink is Brad. Boo, you spend almost over an hour listening to meeh when I knew you had other stuff to do. We've both been down da same road before, so I'm glad that I talked to you. We don't want to play fools to anyone anymore and after our conversation last nyte I believe we never will. Thank you Brad.
And...I don't really want to thank Julian, or I do want to think him but....I can't. Ju, your words hurt meeh the most out of anything that was said last nyte. Telling meeh that you told meeh so wasn't what I needed. What I needed last ntye was some advice, or comfort. What did you give meeh instead? Your typical arrogant aloofness about it. I don't need that! I never will or never did. What I did appriciate was you being there in silence. The mere knowlege of your presence was enough.
But enough of that. Todaii's a new daii and I should be talking about that. When I woek up this morning I had a new txt form Robert. We continued to talk about what we were saying last nyte. I'm not going to go into details but I do have one thing to saii. Robert is finally getting what he desevers. He finally got what was coming to him. At first I was happi...well not happi but pleased to see he was getting his. After all that he did to meeh he more than deserves this. But now I feel kinda bad for him. Well....maiibe I'm not too sure... I mean I want to help him, cuz I care about him as both a friend and a lil bit more. But when I think about it I prolly shouldn't care. Not after everything. I should just let this eat at meeh the waii all of his wrong doings have eatten at meeh in da past. Then again, theres a small part of meeh that thinks this won't last long. Maiibe in a couple of daiis he's giong to have a new girl to go after....lyke always. He's never seemed to have a hard time getting girls so this time shouldn't be any different...even tho he's sounded very serious... He should be oki. But if he can't pick himself up then maiibe I'll consider talking to him and helping him get over this. I'm still ver much hurt over what happened yesterdaii and I think ish going to be a while before I can be alone wiff him. Sure I'll talk to him but that doesn't mean I'm happi wiff him. Just lookin at him makes meeh sad....
I should stop living in da past..I'm going to just end this post here....iight I'm out. Holla atcha gurl.
THIS is the real Hennessy
7/21/2004 08:06:00 PM
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