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Friday, January 21, 2005
Mood:  | Betrayed
Music: None
Social: No one
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I don't kno why I even started this post. I don't post for a while and then when I start to ish lyke I can't stop. Seems I really do need this blog for venting. Seems lyke other than SHAY and mai other sorors I really don't have anyone else to talk to. No one to confide in. It's sad really...I use to have it all. People there for meeh but now...look at this shit. I feel lyke I have nothing...and no one at all...
i don't know what to saii anymore. I started this and now I can't even continue. Now its me who's choking on her tears and can't even finish typing. Its been hard to do sitting here typing with one hand and holding a pack of ice wiff the other. Mai face feels lyke ish put together wrong and since yesterdaii it hasn't gotten any better. Mai mom asked meeh what happen...god I didn't kno what to tell her so I told her that I had been play fyting wiff a friend and they hit meeh...I don't think she really bought it but she didn't pester meeh about it. She was too busy talkin on the phone anyway. And for once, it felt good to be ignored. Lately I've been gettin a lot of it but this time it feels good. If the swelling doesn't go down I really don't want to go to skewl...I don't want to attaract attention. I think that all of this being ignore has gotten to meeh and now I'm use to it. Besides, I won't be able to lie to mai friends. They're going to see ryte thru meeh and when I told them who hit meeh......
Mai God...I haven't even told anyone about it...And I think I just myte be able to pull it off...the waii I've learned to do make up I could make a drag queen look lyke a total lady...I don't kno if I should be proud of myself or what. All I have to do is pull out my fake smile, some expensive clothes, and no one will kno anything at all...the waii I lyke it.
this is takin much longer than I thought it would. I thought I could just come on and blog a little but it's taking waii longer. I've been at this for an hour already. A whole hour...I kno, doesn't seem lyke it. I've backspaced so many things its not even funny. Even here I feel lyke I can't be open wiff mai upmost fears...I guess I'll never be able to.
I should go. There's no point to this post. I have to change towels anyway. I'll cut it here. Maiibe I'll be back later. Maiibe not. But what's it matter anyway, no one reads this. I'd have to have friends for that.
Holla.
THIS is the real Hennessy
1/21/2005 04:10:00 PM
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